Action/Inaction

I have recently discovered that sometimes action in opposition to the consequences can leave one just as doubtful and regretful as deciding to not act. I act out of fear of what could have been, it could be summed in the "Live with no regrets" statement, but maybe this is not the best idea. I have come to conclude that one cannot know when a decision to act will be a decision that will lead to regret; or the contrapositive to that. Therefore I think the decision to act hinges upon whether or not it would be wise to do so. This sounds obvious, but wisdom is logical and emotional at times, but also is transcendent of both. So the question is what is wisdom?

The soundtrack to this post was Never Shout Never and Fleet Foxes

The cold gray encompassing

Right now it is raining hard outside, I can hear the rain against my window and my roommate shuffling around in his bed. I am sitting in my bed under the covers trying to knock off the chill.

Sometimes I wonder how things will turn out.

I have also come to realize that I have no idea where I am going. I will just arrive and probably be surprised at my destination. This realization though will allow me to fashion a rudder, and set a course.

I have recently been feeling rather discontented with my current surroundings. Liberty university is a good school, but I feel as if I am no longer learning. I feel increasingly disconnected.

I hope it rains tomorrow.

Fail blog

So for the most part my intention to start a consistent blog seems to be failing yet again. I will continue to try to keep this going. I just don't feel very motivated to write. I mean I do write, but rarely on here.
It is late right now, so I will write more later.... hopefully.

So I find myself in Cassville, Missouri. It is a rather small town in the southwest corner of MO. It has been about 6 weeks school ended, and my grandiose plans for a productive summer seem to be failing fast. This is probably due to the heat.
Yesterday was my Birthday (23rd). I don't know why I capitalize Birthday, but I seem to have a strong inclination to do it often. The night before my birthday I had a dream that was somewhat disturbing,but more annoying than anything. In my dream there was a guy following me around saying "a birthday is a reminder that behind the thin veil of mortality lies the horror of the shade."
Questions....that litter my thoughts.
What makes a person believe that they can change their environment?
How does a person gather the information required to make a complete definition of a social paradigm/construct?
How does a person introduce a new social paradigm/construct in the most effective manner?